Day #8-My Heartbeat
Today I'm thankful that we serve an on time God. One thing that I know is that He will give you something when He knows you need it even if you don't know you need it yet. When I got pregnant with my son, I wasn't ready to be a mother. I wasn't married or financially prepared. Something in my heart revealed to me that it was time. I remember having a conversation with my dad while sitting at the dining room table and he told me he was ready to have another grandchild. I was shocked because I thought that he was going to be disappointed. Surprisingly, he was very understanding and we talked about everything from health insurance for the baby to the baby names. Once I got my sonogram and revealed that I was having a boy, he got even more excited. We were planning but God had an ultimate plan. My dad helped me with my baby shower and it turned out perfect. 18 days after my baby shower, my father left for work and I never saw him alive again. The morning that he passed away, he had pictures spread all over the bed. He was looking at pictures of his immediate family before God called him home. I don't know what he was thinking, but I believe he felt something. Four days later, I had my son. He has been a blessing in my life since the day I found out I was pregnant. My pregnancy was easy. I never had problems until delivery. The stress of losing my dad caused my blood pressure to rise to a dangerous level and I almost died. See God had a plan. He knew it was the right time for my son to be here. He knew that the loss of my dad would have been too much for me to bear so he prepared my gift and presented him to me early to lessen the blow of the loss. Many times when I feel like giving up, my son motivates me to press on. He's been a great kid up to this point. Motherhood showed me how to be selfless. He's the one person in this world that I would sacrifice my life for. Only God knows our future. My son has been my heartbeat when circumstances were literally suffocating the life out of me. I thank God for replacing my pain with a present.