Awake

 Good Morning world, I’m the face of abuse,

 And this is the day that I tell you my truth,

 See, our reality can cause us a great deal of shame,

 But the pathway to heal is releasing the pain,

 I hid my scars from the world cause you can’t understand,

 How a woman like me could ever deal with this man,

 I fooled myself everyday that I was happy at last,

 So I got out of bed and I put on my mask,

 See, I’m an actress, I practiced my script everyday,

 As my peace and my joy was slowly going away,

 See abuse has no voice; and my spirit was dead,

 Once he captured my heart, he played games with my head,

 Heart breaking denial had taught me to be,

 Someone who suffered in silence until I could break free,

 I thought that love was enough and in time he would change,

 I made excuses for him cause his heart was in pain,

If he only sees ugliness in his rear view,

He can't recognize the beauty when he looks at you,

 I prayed for his peace so he would stop the attacks,

 And when I wanted it over, he always wanted me back,

 He promised never, ever would he do it again,

 But every time he saw fit, the attacks would begin,

Every time that he started his verbal assault,

If I defended myself, he would say it's my fault,

 Every insult and name, and then here comes the blame,

 Then his conscience arrived with his guilt and his shame,

 I questioned the motive cause he never loved me,

 But I was blinded by words, cause that’s all I could see,  

 See “I’m sorry” is common cause it worked the first time,

 But it gave him the right to keep crossing the line,

 And though he is gone, many scars still remain,

 He keeps calling my phone like he’s playing a game,

 See when a man has no purpose and his life is a mess,

 He will try to destroy you until nothing’s left,

 He will never love you cause he can’t love himself,

 And I never deserved the unfair hand I was dealt,

 I pray to God every day to break the soul tie,

Now my tear ducts are dry, and from this truth I can’t hide,

An insecure man is always jealous of you,

So he lies to the world cause he hates his own truth,

He always finds fault,

So he tears you down slow,

But the funny thing is, he won’t let you go,

Now that I realize I was living a lie,

And with all of my strength, all these feelings must die,

An inadequate mate will destroy your whole life,

And until he has peace he will never be right,

So now and forever, I declare this grand oath,

Never, ever choose a mate if you’re not equally yoked.

 

Signed: Healing in progress!