I was looking through my documents on my computer and ran across my first spoken word piece from 2007. As a writer/poet, it's very interesting to review your work from the past. Today, I wanted to share with you, my introduction to the are of open mic. Some of you that know me may remember this blast from the past.
Rejection
Rejection is; because of one more failed relationship,
My self-image has suffered
Rejection is; when you give your love over and over and love doesn't give back,
Rejection is; he never really wanted you anyway
You were just a pawn in heartaches game,
And this started the beginning of your reality attack,
Rejection is; when you look in the mirror and literally hate what you see,
When you realized your so called soulmate relationship didn't have an ounce of reciprocity
Remember the song from back in the day, when we didn't realize what the song was tryna say,
The title is, "It's Over Now", and it goes a little something like this,
Ahh, y'all thought a sista was gonna sing,
See Ima poetess not a songstress and I can't take that kinda risk,
But if I change my hair, the clothes I wear, the life I live, the love I give,
How bout I change my walk, the way I talk, get brand new shoes and attitude,
And with intense psychological evaluation I've realized,
That even with all these things they can never fill the void inside,
Rejection is; when the tears watered your soul during all those nights you cried,
And like a chameleon you change to keep from going insane,
Rejection is; when you experiment with this drug called, approval addiction,
Searching for the ultimate high tryna sedate the pain,
See I had some issues I was tryna resolve y'all,
I was tired of working that hard to put up that facade,
I used to ask myself, am I too big, do I drive the right car,
Are my lips too full,
You know what, whoever can't love me for me right now I need to show you the door,
See I learned to love myself so I had to be by myself in induced isolation,
A personal wilderness occasion
Have you ever been there,
When it seems like everyone else's life is moving and yours ain't going nowhere
I was afflicted, stigmatized by singleness,
and tainted with the perception of loneliness,
So God stepped in, transformed and my self perception and set me free,
See my insecurities really didn't belong to me,
And I'm at a place in my life now where I don't care what unconfident, insignificant, apprehensive
people see,
See it's really not hard at all y'all, it's as easy as 1, 2, 3
Now I don’t care what other people think,
For the first time in my life, I just got to be me,
See, sometimes rejection is your greatest blessing so you won't keep making the
Same mistakes over and over again,
I don't know about you, but I finally learned my lesson.
Rejection is; because of one more failed relationship,
My self-image has suffered
Rejection is; when you give your love over and over and love doesn't give back,
Rejection is; he never really wanted you anyway
You were just a pawn in heartaches game,
And this started the beginning of your reality attack,
Rejection is; when you look in the mirror and literally hate what you see,
When you realized your so called soulmate relationship didn't have an ounce of reciprocity
Remember the song from back in the day, when we didn't realize what the song was tryna say,
The title is, "It's Over Now", and it goes a little something like this,
Ahh, y'all thought a sista was gonna sing,
See Ima poetess not a songstress and I can't take that kinda risk,
But if I change my hair, the clothes I wear, the life I live, the love I give,
How bout I change my walk, the way I talk, get brand new shoes and attitude,
And with intense psychological evaluation I've realized,
That even with all these things they can never fill the void inside,
Rejection is; when the tears watered your soul during all those nights you cried,
And like a chameleon you change to keep from going insane,
Rejection is; when you experiment with this drug called, approval addiction,
Searching for the ultimate high tryna sedate the pain,
See I had some issues I was tryna resolve y'all,
I was tired of working that hard to put up that facade,
I used to ask myself, am I too big, do I drive the right car,
Are my lips too full,
You know what, whoever can't love me for me right now I need to show you the door,
See I learned to love myself so I had to be by myself in induced isolation,
A personal wilderness occasion
Have you ever been there,
When it seems like everyone else's life is moving and yours ain't going nowhere
I was afflicted, stigmatized by singleness,
and tainted with the perception of loneliness,
So God stepped in, transformed and my self perception and set me free,
See my insecurities really didn't belong to me,
And I'm at a place in my life now where I don't care what unconfident, insignificant, apprehensive
people see,
See it's really not hard at all y'all, it's as easy as 1, 2, 3
Now I don’t care what other people think,
For the first time in my life, I just got to be me,
See, sometimes rejection is your greatest blessing so you won't keep making the
Same mistakes over and over again,
I don't know about you, but I finally learned my lesson.
